I can't believe that wasn't the first thing I did this morning; to wish you a happy, happy birthday. And many more, of course. I should sing you a song.
Okay, I will do it in private. But hey, be on guard, I have just started conversations with a voice teacher. I will be taking lessons in the very near future. I have a decent singing voice in private. I squeak and lose it when it comes to sharing it with the public. I want to see if he can fix that about me. I would love to overcome that.
Remember when I delivered singing telegrams for Eastern Onion back in 1980 or '81 for three weeks? I got $10 per song. Once, I got a $2 tip. I had knees a-wobblin' and lips a-quiverin' when I sang in public. The worst delivery was in a crowded restaurant, middle of the day, a new National Secretary's week song just learned an hour before the engagement. All ears and eyes were on me. The attention almost had me combust, it was so intense. I forgot lyrics to a verse, so I improvised and started playing the kazoo and had the monkey on my arm do it's thing. I don't know that anyone was aware that I was freaking out on the inside. I have good improv skills when forced to use them. That incident may have been the deciding factor in my decision to quit that business and doing any kind of performing for the next 17 years.
Even though I still have stage fright like crazy, I am compelled to get out there anyway. I tried to cure it. Maybe it has to do with being a middle child and needing attention. Maybe I shouldn't care why I need to, I just have to follow my bliss. And if that means acting a fool, so be it.
Happy Birthday, brother dear. May your day be full of pleasant synchronicities.
Love,
Janine
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